The Battle

The Battle is Not Yours

We all have things that we battle with in life that no one knows about. Sometimes we feel like we are the only one going through it and start to believe there is no way out. Well I'm here to tell you, you're not alone and there is a way out. God is preparing you for something, just hold on the battle will soon be over.

We all have those days where we feel sad for one reason or another, we cry a little and then the next day we're back to normal. Then there are those days when our sadness never seems to go away. We go around our friends and family and try to pretend like everything is okay, when deep down we know that we're not. Depression is what they call it. According to Webster dictionary depression is the state of feeling sad, or a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad ,hopeless, and unimportant and is often unable to live in a normal way.

My battle with depression 

Almost a year ago I began to fall into depression. I felt like everthing in my life was falling apart and I was not  happy with it. I don't know how I managed to get up for class, with my hair and make up done everyday and pretend like everything was okay.  I looked good on the outside but on the inside I was empty, hopeless, confused and broken. I was empty because I felt like I was missing something inside and tried to feel those voids with people. I felt hopeless because I believed that life wasn't gonna get any better for me. Confused because I did not understand why I was feeling like this I wanted it to be over I just wanted to be happy. I was broken because every part of me was falling apart. Not only did this thing called depression affect me but it started to affect everyone around me. Although they didn't really know what was going on with me they could see that something was wrong. As the semester continued it started to get worse. I started thinking of ways I could possibly end my life. Although I know I wasn't going to do it I just felt like maybe the world would be better off without me because I didn't want to burden anyone with my problems.  I would cry myself to sleep at night. One day I was hurting so deep inside that I found ways to hurt myself on the outside. Everyone started to ask me if I was okay, that's when I realized I could not hide it any longer. I told one of my friends what was going on and they told me to read the bible and pray. 

Now what was reading the bible and praying going to do for me? Reading the bible and praying helped me get back closer to God because during this dark time in my life I lost sight of God. Even though I might not of heard him in the midst of it. He was right there by my side through it all. Sometimes even when God is silent he is still there listening to us. I believe what I  went through has made me stronger and closer to God. 

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not discourage. Deuteronomy 31:18

Depression is something that people battle with everyday and can sometimes cause someone to take their life. Suicide awareness is something I take very seriously.

"Everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Remember to be kind always"

God has a purpose for your life and wants to use you. Whatever you are going through is only going to make you stronger.  

For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 

Stay blessed, 

          Bria Jasel Davis.